Blah, blah, blah

Well, I have really felt like I should post every night this week, but I actually don't have much to say. Nothing funny, or cute, or even interesting. In fact, I feel blah this week. I think it is a little depression, and some leftover disappointment.

Now, I KNOW that the timing will be better in June. I KNOW this in my heart of hearts, but when I saw that countdown calendar on my clock go from 5 days to 100+ days, a little bit of my heart broke. Well, cracked, anyway. Not broken. I just have to find my "get up and go" again.

I woke up yesterday, and asked Dan if I could call into work "disappointed." We didn't think that would fly, so I went on in. However, I didn't even make it to my room before Sadie got sick. She had a migraine, and it snowballed. We ended up at the doctor, and then the imaging center for a head CT, then the eye doctor. Yeah, she needs glasses now! So, no, I didn't have time for surgery and kids and school all at once.

I also have just physically not been 100% this week. My feet are swelling, and I haven't had that happen in a long time! And I can't figure out why, because all I drink is water and the occasional protein shake. (FYI - I have been drinking at least 90 ounces of water a day!) I have not given in and had a Diet Pepsi! That is a victory this week. 

Anyway, I am taking a few "sad" days, but I am still trying to watch what I am eating. I am tossing around a few ideas to kick-start this next 20 pounds. I CAN do this. I WILL do this. I MUST do this. (Can you tell, that is my pep-talk for me?)

Thanks for reading my pity-party tonight. I'll try to do better next time!

FYI - Per my countdown calendar, it is 96 days until my surgery! Yay!!!

Have a blessed week.